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Monday, March 03, 2008

2:29 PM

What went wrong?

It's the question that keeps ringing in my head. yea exactly what went wrong. Anyway the song that I said I would learn.

She keeps her secrets

In her eyes

She wraps the truth

Inside her lies

Just when I can't say

What she's done to me

She comes to me

And leads me back to paradise

She's so hard to hold

But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards

in a hurricane

A reckless ride

In the pouring rain

She cuts me and the pain

Is all I wanna feel

She tears away just like a child

She drives me crazy

Drives me wild

But I'm helpless when she smiles

She smiles

-
Maybe I'd fight if I could

It hurts so bad

But feels so good

She opens up just like

A rose to me

When she's close to me

Anything she'd ask me to

I would
It's out of control

But I can't let go

--
A song, synchronize to a beat close to me.

Friday, February 01, 2008

4:07 PM

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

Yea, you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

2:41 PM

Beautiful

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun

Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come

And I can't help but feel attached

To the feelings I can't even match

With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky

Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't

And I love you, as you love me

So let the clouds roll by your face

We'll let the world spin on to another place

We'll climb the tallest tree above it all

To look down on you and me and them

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't

Don't let your life wrap up around you

Don't forget to call, whenever

I'll be here just waiting for you

I'll be under your stars forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

I'll be under the stairs forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you.

Monday, January 28, 2008

3:40 PM

Intoxication

Indulge in my world of shopping, sports and feeling down. It's a mad life that we love, we just won't give it up with the beauty around. Sunday's sun smacked on my face forcing on me the wake up call. I guess I'm feeling much better from the past few days, guess it's the butterfly effect from shopping =). Gloomy weathers and that neverending smile, it's a crazy day. =) =) =)! Will be working tomorrow but I don't feel down and out about it. Took a walk around town today, seeing what Paul Smith, Ted Baker and G-star Raw had to offer for this season. I am starting to feel that walking around town is like downloading temptations. The wants and needs and no inbetweens, just buy something you like.

My shopping guide for dummies on why we should buy expensive clothes:

#1: The more you spend the bigger your confidence grows.

#2: Instead of buying many clothes why not just get one damm good one.

#3: Shopping for more expensive clothes draws the line between cultured to ah beng/ lian.

Yea I know my idea sounds really warped and some might say I'm a bad shopping advisor, but maybe I'm just a sweet talker, giving reasons for high-end shopping haha =). Well I got another pullover from Paul Smith today. Cost a bomb but I love it, that's all that matters hahaha!

My Paul Smith's love =)

Thursday, January 24, 2008

5:25 PM

Retainers

Boo! Back with another piece of my mind post. Today wasn't that bad of a day, just the flash thoughts of getting my result tomorrow scares the crap out of me, from time to time. It's a thought which never fails to bring my day rating from a +1 back to a zero. A contradiction of hoping to end work fast but yet a wanting to slow down the doomsday clock. The fading fine line of emotions delivers me into state of perplexity. Emotions are tossed like in a salad dish, getting high at a moment then smashing back down into the bowl. Love, results, and work were the main ingredients for this salad.

So many things I want to do though at the moment, I want to play soccer, go clubbing, hang out with Akarad and gang, I want to go into a poly, I want to run, I want to go back to having a low-carbo diet and I want to break down. With so many things to do, I could just go crazy. -Sings *So little time to so much to do, I rather spend my days with you.*.

Back on track, I feel now I'm going through a retainer process, to hold back and stay in position, moving neither forward nor backward, but all for a good cause. Guess we'll go easy on love, it's paper hearts we're dealing with. alright good night world...

3:51 PM

Butterfly

Hello again, it's been a long while and I'm honestly trying to get used to blogging on a regular basis. Passing my time with the least expected job and new friends. It's a joyride that tracks over the ups and downs of our daily problems. Abiding to one another about oour problems at work is a method we adopted to fight the losing war of wanting time to move faster. Sometimes love feels high up in the dreamy clouds, till reality strikes it back down to earth. I hope it won't be long till I break free and turn into a butterfly. I tie myself down to my made believe hopes, and dream to see it come to pass. I can only blame myself for this act of stupidity due to my ignorance for reality in the love world. Guess what I saw and learnt from the love movies are fairytales to the real world. "Hush hush", goes the crowd, "don't feel like a lonestar, you ain't alone". Thanks people for the cheers and beers, but when my smile gets old and faded, just know that I loved.

Work work with a racing mind and tragic eyes, adding on would be the ticking of a doomsday clock of the O levels. In hope for a new break away in poly, and not the army. Meanwhile I'll find something to pass my time as I wait for so many things to weave it's way out or around.

I know I'm weak now but I'm hanging on, alright that's all for my post. goodnight world...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

3:32 PM

Now I'm confused

Hey all once again, there I go again with my reasoning to why the uber late post. Basically put it this way, I can't come up with a nice excuse this time, just my apologies. Alright, making my comeback isn't actually a full package of everything nice, and an upcoming radio-ed good news. I am indulging in bleakness and with the lack of understanding to life, girls and love. It's a pain that smiles as it eats me inside out.

Girl cries twirls and whirls of the mind for now. A search for a better understanding of them and a wish for a crystal baller to tell me the ending. I'm tired from hanging on every word she said, but would letting go send me into a freefall to the deep unknown. My raging mind just wouldn't rest, it's like a sun that just won't set. Ever since schools started we have drowned our conversations, the much laughs and meet ups we had seems so far away now. I only have the that little picture memories of what used to be and now I die to what is happening. At times I really want to know the ending, at the same time I don't want to hear it. A play titled, "King of Contradiction", starring Sean as the lead actor. Feed me the happy pill, I seriously need to see some light in this love game for two. Yes people, do leave a tag, as I want to see who is still reads in a way. thanks

I'll say goodnight world... for now.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

9:22 PM

Ok somebody kill me now

The flashy light and pumping music is killing me slowly. Saving my last dance for the night wasn't much used, as you danced with someone else. I'm sorry for even bothering to crash your post prom party, but seeing you in another guys arms just blows me away. My high spirits went to zilch in an instant. Good music went to waste as my mood wasn't in the groove. I can't sleep and nothing can save me now. Tears free flow yet my heart remains dry. I hate myself for keeping false hopes of you and me, now I live in regret. Sorry Akarad for spoiling your night and thanks for being there for me.