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Monday, August 21, 2006

10:55 PM

I become a stranger to my life?

Well, i wanted to post the photos but Sharon jie computer seems to have problem sending it. I guess I'll wait for more then I will post it all at once. Well, last sunday I could have died but I guess God still had plans for Jeremy and me. I will not go through the whole thing but just that part of the church wall could have fell on us but it fell the other direction. The more I ponder over it, it just makes the meaning of living for God stronger in my life. Like I should stop staying in my comfort zone and enjoy, but to go out and spread the good news till my last days. Had oral exam today, it was GREAT! Praise the LORD! yeah I would not mind doing it again even if it was another question, picture or story to read. I am not insane or becoming bonkus I am OK! So yea, I really wonder what it means to be worlds apart. Like how my life would be like to be worlds apart with the ways of the world and to walk whole heartedly with God. There are somethings I honestly find it hard to let go. I always say God you take control, but when it comes back it strikes me back down to square one. What am I to do? to say? How do I go to God with all that I am? Going through these ordinary days makes me tired. Sigh... these ordinary days.

[Am I allowing another to control my emotions..]