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Saturday, September 08, 2007

2:40 PM

Late nights/Early mornings

Haha nono people I'm not leaving my blog, I barely just got here. Well the past 2 night kinda took a step into the action movie set. The late night sneak outs sparked an excitement which was brought forward to venues I visited at the late night hours. Yes common places for the 17 year olds would be lan shop? prata house? a drive around in your older friends car? how about doing what 18 year olds do? "I'll head to zouk" was how wednesday went for me. The logical sense of me using another friend's I/C to give me a glimmer hope to join in the dancing and loud music just gave a the thrills. Yes yes the little thrills of life, unlesss you are driving 200km/h on the highway you'll just get thrill, for the word little? just fades away. It's been a while since I stepped back into a club. Who could deny the pretty ones that just float pass you leaving you with just their flamboyant essences. Had a great time despite having to lose a friend due to the overdosage of alcohol, but at least his cousin was there to get him home safe and sound. Partied my night away with a pretty one while getting constantly tease by my tags. All the partying help with the dilution of my concentration of hope and love. I guess I'm feeling much better after the night =). Won't mention names as privacy is important and I happy with my dance partner x).

Moving on to the day after all the hard drinking and getting high as the music took control. I woke up fresh but wished that last night didn't end. If only it could go one for just a while longer or the clock would just stop ticking. The pounding beat got me all smiling despite the terrible wake up calls and bad sunshine. I kinda went through the day getting lost of previous night, and I kinda like how it felt. Well, as for me, my every good turn will just end with me crashing into river of saddness and bad news. Painkiller and morphine that aids the flesh and not my heart, but well it might just take some of the physical pain I do to myself. We relate to each other liek cat and mouse, I thought things would just turn out fine but I ended up with a friend for 3 hours and then we caption ourselves as total strangers. I guess it was just a good painting of hope and expectation burned with the toying plot. I guess I only have myself to blame, to think that the world out there was just filled with butterflies and sugarcoated rainbows. Well Smashing Pumpkins sure got something right, THE WORLD IS A VAMPIRE! Yea it is a sad truth that lies hidden behind our innocent behaviour. It's dead true. Other than draining myself with thought of you, I spent the rest of the day with my good friends at the airport. Sending a friend off who I hardly met honestly wasn't the main frame for me winding to the airport. I just wanted to spend time with my friends who were going and they consist of Jun Jie, Akarad, Limlin and Kit. Good friends are hard to come by so guys and girl, you rock my socks =).

Finally as for today being friday, well thank God it's friday and I still can't get over wednesday and thursday. It digusting to know that I blinded by my love fairytale, where it turns out to be all just a dream and I'm sent back straight to reality. Cell today was great, with the holding of movie night with the cells combine. Watch a film titled, Amazing Grace. A show about a man who dedicated his whole life, making a history in the world, fighting for the abolishment of slave trade. With loads and I mean loads of controversies, it gave the story a lil more meaning to being persistant and giving your all for God's plan.

Well, I hope I have not lose the viewers interest, if you feel so do let me know alright people. I'll try my best to make the changes for the better and make you feel more at home. Unless you are asking me to add singlish to my blog, that I can't consider but other than that I will try. Smile for the day. goodnight world...