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Monday, September 10, 2007

3:23 PM

Tripping on my concern

Just like what good charlotte sang, everybody put up your hands and say, "I don't want to be in love, I don't want to be in love." At times we tend to overthink situation cause an unwanted fire to start. Assumptions that drives in a circle then crashes to kill you. Today, kinda made me hope for a time machine to and go back to the time where I overthought things, and said something that might have strain the friendship, from hero to zero in one sms. It feels like crap literally, the thought of losing the beginning period of a beautiful friendship haunts me each passing minute. Am I to be blamed for being too innocent, thinking that if you treat the world good if will return the favour, or that the world wouldn't toy with feelings and play love as a game. Well don't you know that misery is my company and it comes looking for me day in and day out. It goes away giving me a hope which I depended on to take me to the good days, but crashes it by taking the return visit. The visit of the misery-in-laws.

I now stare blank on a phone with no replies, though a constant check up on it for the hoped for reply, but up to now there isn't any. I kinda wished I didn't get myself in all this fixed actually, but I get myself confuse with my feeling and reality. Face the fact Sean, love wasn't even in the room that day. It was just the company of lust, false hope and fun. I hope my one wrong liner will be overwritten by the other good ones. Crap no one here has a clue on how I'm feeling, happiness is a face that does not look good on me. Being poetic about my overloved sadness isn't the best idea, but it at the very least gets me lifted for a second or two. I just hoped for a bright morning with a reply, due to the reason I long-hoped actually happened. Well today was many people birthday, I'll just try to keep my sadness alive and watch you happy people live your life. I would try to learn a thing or two from you.

After all I've typed, a reply just came in. A good one, and now I think I just got everyone confused with my feelings now. I'm better now. Sorry for worrying caused. Well take care peeps, will be working tomorrow goodnight world...