'batteries not included

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

5:00 PM

Progress zero

Surely I'm on a carousel, and it's one doloring ride. My deprive of joy from this sick cycle carousel, have made me lose hope in this relationship I tried building. Ooo well, the deteriorating communication tumbles my building blocks, never failing to leave an undesirable stain on my velvet heart. I guess my understanding about girls would have to be subtitled due to my inadequacy of knowledge over the topic, though of which I hold so dear. I guess my love story in a contradiction to all who reads it or watch it, but always leads to the not so happy ending. The incomplete fairytale and forced joy are the main events of my life story. Will all this ever come to an end? Will someone stop this chain reaction of bleakness? Only time and God will tell, so I guess I'll have to face the lonely hours again. An unending flow of questions floods the troubled mind, will he find peace again? his purpose? his joy? once again I am place on a thin line of what might and what is. I can't stand up, but yet I can't fall down, and the lacking decision and the overdued emotions plays the one sided see-saw. Some say, look on the bright side of life, yea alright let's try that. Hmm, ohh at least my love life have always been consistant, despite of it always leaving me empty. I find similarities in love and a stalk of rose, you work your way up the thorny path for something beautiful. I am honestly drained and hope to come to a decision tomorrow. A dreadful post tagged with my good night wishes. goodnight world...